Hi....its sat afternoon and my husband is fishing all day.....i must admit i no longer feel like the most important thing in his life.....nothing is the same....he is a very different person after the cancer......i was what he wanted.....thought about and longed for......its not that way anymore.....im getting used it.....however its just not the same anymore.....i suppose i could type away and use that stupid little story about God making scrambled eggs when you drop an egg or something like that but truth be told i don't want that ....i don't want a new life....i liked the old one...where we were close and had emotional intimacy......what does one do in this situation...it can be rather lonely.....what have i in learned.....that "HE" never changes....even though everything absolutely everything in life has changed "HE" hasn't...."HE" is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Thank God b/c I would never make it. Anyone ever felt this way...would love a comment and/or thoughts.....my son is doing good...has an interview on mon. I'm praying and thanking God for his new job and him getting on his way to God's plan for his life......good prayer with my friend barb today.......warfare mom