thurs nite...my husband is golfing....home alone with my son....enjoying his company....i mean really enjoying it.....it was a good day today...peaceful....not full of inner turmoil....where does that come from anyway.....i think for me it comes from wanting so desperately for my kids to be happy...when will I realize that I am not responsible for this, esp. now that they are older.....its just that you suffer if your children suffer and you want desperately to take it away....its part of the motherhood thing....but truthfully God works through so many things and we moms do them a disservice by praying it all away sometimes.....i am always learning to let go....who am i kidding..i'll never let go.....hey someone out there post a commentd.j.