my son chris just completed his first week of full time work....many thanks to my heavenly father .....thats all that needs to be said.....the fight is over.....and we have prevailed over the enemy......warfare mom

hello to all who have read this blog.....things with my chris got somewhat harder today....hhmmm what does this mean....could it be that it is getting closer to his deliverance so satan is screaming....don't know...i just know I love my son and want him better...he does not work....some thing that is really hard for me....and doesn't get up before the crack of noon or later unless i wake him up to go look for a job.....i ask myself why all the time...why did this become who he seems to be now....if i just leave it all alone will it get better on its own OR should i continue to try and wake him...i'm thinking that I will just back off...it is hi s life not mine......no one and i do mean no one seems to get any of this....no one even sees that this seems wrong...am i crazy.....hey maybe its me.....i should just let him live his life....i could do that if he seemed happy but he seems anything but...i honestly thi nk he needs to get away from this house, away from me....be with someone else...to hear their perspective on life...is that person out there.....wafare mom

sat afternoon....spending most of this weekend with my son chris.....watching man vs. wild...built to shred...and yes football.....i hate football..but i love my son....greater is He is that is in me than he that is in the world......i will stay the course till i win this battle...even if i have to watch football...warfare mom..(its not always about prayer you know.

I did not vote for president elect obama.....yes i voted for the republican...i will not share my reasons even though I have them...I voted the way my king ....the true leader of our country...the one with the "government upon His shoulders...and oh yes "the maker of heaven and earth" led me to....but now i felt the unity as i watched the acceptance speech...and saw the people so happy and crying...i felt well kind of hopeful...while not being naive....but nevertheless i felt some hope....God is in control...remember this ok......Warfare Mom

i'm laid off from my midday job...yes I said midday....i had two jobs...now i have one.....and you know when i had two...i STILL didn't have enough money....b/c i was going about it all my way instead of His.....so He took one away....so now it's ALL up to HIM. His economy is so fantastic....He said...Give and it shall be given unto you.......so simple yet somewhat hard to do when the bills are screaming -we are DUE NOW.....but i humble myself to His Way and endeavor to follow it. My son is still seeking employment...i'm thinking lately...what else is at play here....i should just not even stress about it but every mom wants her kids to be OK....he sleeeps and sleeeps...it is hard to watch.....help me Lord....need help.....i want a good life for him.....help....warfare mom

sunday afternoon....just got home from church......learned about the "power" of almighty God.....that we...you and me ....have this power on the inside of us to give away to those who may need a touch from"Him"....it is tangible...I Know this as I have experienced it myself.....and when the measure of faith that God also placed on the inside of us that believe comes together with the power of God...well then you have a miracle....I believe...how about you.....something I also have come to realize in a huge way lately esp. where my son is concerned....is that I am not warring against flesh and blood....but rather spirits....fallen angels....that are trespassing on my family......however, I have authority over these spirits....therefore they must bow their knee and leave once and for all.....more later, warfare mom

hello.......im praising God today...not b/c anything with chris is better but simply b/c God said to......i've got nothing else now except praising Him anyway.....what does it say in His word.....even though things aren't what they need to be yet i willl joy in the God of my salvation....i'm paraphrasing here....so i'm joying in the God of my salvation...even though i sense that things aren't not good...a mother knows...oh how we KNOW......sometimes i wish i didn't...wish i was so darn good at KNOWING ....it would be less painful....less painful to know that things aren't right.....i'm very smart this way....not much goes by me.....i'm a mother 4 times,not to mention the fact that i have the holy spirit who shows me what is to come......so I KNOW....nevertheless i am on the wall u till God makes my son a praise on the earth.....i'm heavy hearted.....pray...warfare mom

hi everyone......sunday afternoon....just got home from oc md. - on a spiritual weekend with my friends in the womens group at my church-"strong faith family church".....what a blast......it seems to me that it was about wwwaaayyyy more than what it seemed like......there were women there who we knew from years ago who had also been away from"organized church" for a long time...seasoned, crusty, and yes even wounded women....women who knew exactly "how" to enter in and prayer and get an answer from God....something I have worked at for a lifetime now...hearing "him".....He used our giftings.....b/c don't we all have a certain"brilliance" b/c he is in us....something only we are good at and give the body.....it was great.....continued prayer for chris.....now over into being grateful for what has "ALREADY" been done in this situation instead of just wantingit to be over...seems like that is just pure "faith" in action doesn't it......warfare mom

well.....finally some good news to report....chris has a new interview on monday at noon.....i'm sensing God in this....he's different....seems to be somewhat at the end of himself......oh isn't that just when God can step in take over.....ever been there ...I have.....and WHY do we even begin to think that God would need our help...so it seems to me that its the best place to be...at the end of one's rope...then went we are hanging there dangling almighty God swoops down and rescues us......oh how I love HIM......will all of you at least all 2 of you posted...warfare mom

wed nite......and the warfare continues for my son......for him to be free from this wretched enemy that has trespassed in my home and tried to steal his soul and his future......well guess what .......this enemy has been found out and i will make him pay......i will counter attack and get as many people saved and into the kingdom as i can.....i will teach satan a lesson....stay away from my son....God's plan for him is for good and not for evil to give him a future and a hope.....I will give God no rest until he makes chris a "praise" on this earth.....I believe that God has begun a "good work" in my son and will finish it......oh what joy to "stand" on His word...He is working....I can feel and sense it......watchman.....trim your wick...stand on the wall and watch.......anyone else ever had any of this...warfare mom

hi everyone.......my son got a rejection from a job appl. that he put out there...they called to say they went with another canditate...well at least they called so that he doesn't wonder anymore......he took it bad......what a weapon that has been formed against him......well guess what i'm taking back what is being or attempting to be stolen from me....namely my son and his future.....i vasilate between feeling sorry for him and yes then feeling angry at him vb/c it would appear that he doesn't do enough to get a job......why is not working...any ideas......what is the bottom line here.....does he not want to....is he just plain lazy....to some it certainly would appear that way.....but i am endeavoring to see this in "His" eyes...the way that God views my son.....and that would be already complete...after all is Jesus the alpha and the omega...the beginni ng and the end..isn't this problem he is having already solved in heaven....so therefore it must have an answer here on earth....i will await this end to this problem and for the time that i will look and say "look what the Lord did for me".....until then i continue my warfare for my son...write a comment if you read this...warfare mom

Monday night (i think late sept).....I'm Standing...Standing in my belief that the God of the Universe has heard my prayer for chris so I will not go on and on, however I would really like to......he seems a bit desperate.....I ache for him....I KNOW God has a plan......he just so wants/needs a good job.....a sense and reason to get up......I love this boy or should I say young man......he needs a break or should I say breakthrough. Do any of us remember when we were 18 and having absolutely no clue what we were to do with the rest of our lives. I actually do remember...and I remember it being quite painful. When we are young we don't really grasp the depth of God's love for us..not even so sure i get it even now. I live with a man who does n't believe that God has a plan at all. So I have a "tall order" before me.....to be a witness for my belief that God has never failed me yet and that He never will. Does he not yet know that I answer to a higher authority....one not of this world...a peculiar way....must be strange to him...the way I am....oh well everyone around me will have to get used to it b/c "He" is my deliverer and "He" will deliver my son.....get a lawn chair and hide in the bushes and watch....more later,,Warfare Mom

My son Chris has an interview on wed....if you have read this blog you know this means alot.....please pray...he needs a breakthrough...thanks, warfare mom

Hi.....its sunday night...it was a good weekend.......road the harley to northeast md.----so beautiful there on the water....ate delicious crab soup.....then Buck went up in hot air balloon ride.....it was really neat to see......I went to ladies mtg. with girls from church....i had the best time......church was the best this morning....we learned that righteousness is our POSITION not our CHARACTER. WOW isn't that powerful....its our position - meaning the place we pray from not the horrible mess that we might be at that moment...but instead the position that jesus gained for us when he took sin for us. I now KNOW what it means to be "the righteousness of Christ". We danced before the Lord today-----so annointed ---- so full of joy----nothing makes me more in love with "HIM" than at that moment....i'm always so happy when it breaks out over the congregation......my chris needs to get a job....oh what is taking so long......what is the problem.....I KNOW he was happier when he was working....I'm making warfare for him against the enemy that has come against him.....I will win....I already have......warfare mom

Hi everyone.......hope someone out there will maybe read and answer eventually but i continue to write for the clearing of my emotions that it offers me...hopefully it will help someone someday......it is sunday....went to church....we have such a gifted young pastor.....can really give you the word....with no bs....just the true word of life.......it cuts right thru you know...where you can't make any excuses for what you don't do anymore....its really good stuff......today we learned about casting our cares on God....wow do i really do that or do i just say i do......well this should be an interesting week for me........b/c i've really got some cares rolling around in my head......can't even write about my household today...too hard..so i will say goodnight and write again later......warfare mom

Hi....its sat afternoon and my husband is fishing all day.....i must admit i no longer feel like the most important thing in his life.....nothing is the same....he is a very different person after the cancer......i was what he wanted.....thought about and longed for......its not that way anymore.....im getting used it.....however its just not the same anymore.....i suppose i could type away and use that stupid little story about God making scrambled eggs when you drop an egg or something like that but truth be told i don't want that ....i don't want a new life....i liked the old one...where we were close and had emotional intimacy......what does one do in this situation...it can be rather lonely.....what have i in learned.....that "HE" never changes....even though everything absolutely everything in life has changed "HE" hasn't...."HE" is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Thank God b/c I would never make it. Anyone ever felt this way...would love a comment and/or thoughts.....my son is doing good...has an interview on mon. I'm praying and thanking God for his new job and him getting on his way to God's plan for his life......good prayer with my friend barb today.......warfare mom

im praying, and praising god b/c my son lost his job - he was really trying...i mean really trying...i think he's just learning to get along in the work world...that lovely way we make our money......i honestly think he wasn't given a fair chance....i know my son and I KNOW when he is trying and he WAS TRYING at this job. I have already prayed and yes "warfared" about this. Now I will thank and praise almighty God for making a way for my son. It would be easy to get nuts about this but praising God is the better way so I'm going that route..wise choice...just stand still now...stand in faith...knowing the God of universe has heard my prayer...Donna

its fri nite.....7:00 pm and yes i'm settled in for the night and quite happy to be i might say.......i have no desire to be out on a fri nite except maybe for dinner or something......the things that used to fulfill me no longer do.....i prefer quietness, the company of my children when they visit.....being with my husband whom im in the process of reconnecting with or at least working very hard at it...i heard an interesting message this sunday at church by our young pastor who by the way preaches way beyond his years......about letting go and forgiving...i mean really forgiving the hurts that were done to you......that maybe , just maybe the bitternesses that we hold onto (b/c we feel "entitled" to them) are the very reason why we stay sick, or stay in pain, or stay broke.etc. ....that somehow we block that wonderful pipeline to almighty God and His ever present desire to bless us. Yes I am one of those people who believes that divine healing and divine prosperity and yes just an "open heaven" is part of redemption...bought and paid for by our saviour Jesus Christ....that He not only paid the price for sin but for health, prosperity, and joy of having our needs met so that we may in turn be a blessing to others. But does what we hold against someone else clog that open heaven.....what food for thought this has been for me this week.....i am listening to the holy spirit on this.....i have so many prayers out there before God for my kids....and i'm believing for answers so i'm really listening.....what I've learned...that this is a choice, a decision, may not even be something i want to do, and its not as easy as most christians make it out to be...more later, warfare mom

my son is the best kid....it was such a hard time in the beginning of the summer...he seemed so lost...not knowing what to do next after graduation that is.....so he quit his job and slept and slept and slept...i think for about 6 weeks....finally when he was completely at the end of absolutely everything..all graduation money.....all ability to even cope himself and yes when I was all but done with him (because of his attitude and bad mouthing towards me) God literally swooped down and rescued us both.....hes working and learning the lesson of getting up and going anyway...no matter if you want to or not....i now know that even if i don't see the end there ALWAYS is one....he is the alpha and the omega...the beginning and the end......thank you my father for not giving up on my beautiful son....warfare mom

thurs nite...my husband is golfing....home alone with my son....enjoying his company....i mean really enjoying it.....it was a good day today...peaceful....not full of inner turmoil....where does that come from anyway.....i think for me it comes from wanting so desperately for my kids to be happy...when will I realize that I am not responsible for this, esp. now that they are older.....its just that you suffer if your children suffer and you want desperately to take it away....its part of the motherhood thing....but truthfully God works through so many things and we moms do them a disservice by praying it all away sometimes.....i am always learning to let go....who am i kidding..i'll never let go.....hey someone out there post a commentd.j.

well im back yes definitely back ....... i was being quiet for a while and god quite suddenly moved....my son is now working and doing quitegood at it...i can really see the change....i wonder did i really think it would be ok or was i giving up......he is a beautiful kid with quite a calling and gifting i believe....i think i was losing site of him and his heart...i should be ashamed of myself...think i was just tired of the battle but the "warfare" paid off.....what did i get from all of this.....truth be told...not much....just glad its better...well maybe that its just somewhat natural for kids to go through this stuff.....you think i'd KNOW this...hes my 4th kid....maybe its that we MUST ABSOLUTELY MUST see one another the way god sees us..that being with NEW MERCIES every morning....warfaremom

I went back to prayer this sunday with a trusted friend and i feel as though im finally standing upon the rock again........when this storm came ........was i on the rock or on sandy ground....what I've learned is that you can't build your house during the storm....it must be built ahead of time...Donna

How do I get right on the inside again......my son is in such a bad place.....I don't trust him.....He lies...does not work.......I don't even know what happened to him......I'm holding on i nGod....binding the enemy daily.........has anyone gone through this with their child.....he sleeps all day...doesn't want help.......very angry but won't stay home long enough to talk at all......very disrespectful to me...I'm not stupid...probably some type of drugs involved but have no proof...I need help.....do you just pray or intervene in some way...I have no proof of anything........my husband is impossible to live with since he's been sick (cancer)....seems to take all his anger and frustration out on me....I'm trying to pray about all these things....I'm not a novice in prayer....I know how......but I feel like I'm dying inside...it was such a good union between my husband and I......its gone, all gone....what does one do in these situations......anyone lived this stuff..........what did you do...how did you survive..D.J.

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Hello to all you moms who spend time in prayer for their families...........I write for myself....to share some answers I've had along the way and yes some of the unbearable frustrations.....I also write to maybe be an encouragement......maybe I've had some victory that someone needs to hear about to encourage them along the way...I also write because I find myself right now in a place of needing encouragement to continue........you see 2 yrs ago my husband of 4 years was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.......after a long year of the most barbaric treatments i've ever seen he began to get better. I know some of you are saying "Halleluja" and of course I am too.....but if I'm being honest life has never been harder.....everything, absolutely everything is different....I live in a jungle of emotions that I want to somehow learn to conquer. Now I know at this point most christians would insert an "appropriate yet lovely" scripture (and don't get me wrong I love the glorious Word Of God) but honestly I just want my husband/and my life back. I'm frankly tired of the weariness I feel w/o much understanding from anyone....most people just tell me to grateful he is still here. Which of course I am.........but its just different.....so much is gone......I want to find my way back...most people are about my husband...I just need to not feel so damn alone.......then to top it off...my 18 yr. old son is about driving me crazy...not working....lousy attitude....etc. more on that another time......has anyone ever lived stuff like this....got any suggestions.........what does one do when life changes SO Drastically that you can't seem to find the way anymore......I'm all about being honest so no "flowery advice" ok. just maybe your thoughts so I can want to keep going and maybe help someone else...Thanks, Donna